Confessionals

[stephenie]

It's just so nerve wracking to sit here and wait for the results. I really hope everything goes okay with Tina, Chad and Gloria. Those are 3 of my rocks in this game. It looks as if Tina could be leaving. If one of the 3 has to go, I'd prefer her because she is playing very hard. I'm just nervous for the fact that if Tina goes, that tribe could throw Immunity to take out Chad and Gloria as well and then if my tribe loses one, then the merge would be 6 fans and 6 faves. Which is no good.

[stephenie]

Wow, wow, wow blindside! Holy heck. I had no idea that Beau was leaving. Literally, everyone lied to me that I talked to. The alliance that I thought I knew, I don't really know. This is seriously scary. I haven't been in a situation like this in a while. I really need to sit and relax, retrace all my steps and start working on getting people on my side. I just don't really understand keeping Taylor and getting Beau out? It just doesn't make sense.

I really need to speak with Carly, Ben and Liam. Those were my alliance thus far I really trusted in Carly and Ben. So maybe Liam is the true leader of this. I really just got knocked off my high horse. I feel so comfortable and confident. I have a few more days to scramble and work something.

[stephenie]

quick update

I spoke to Carly to get down to what happened. She told me that she heard Beau was coming after her. Which I thought in my head like wtf how ridiculous. He never was, he would have told me -_-. Carly told me she felt bad not informing me and she told me it was nothing against me. She did say she genuinely likes me and wants to work with me still and so does Ben. So that is something I felt and really did believe. I don't think she needs to lie to me at this point. I do feel safe again but definitely not as safe as I once felt. I still just need to rebuild relationships and keep working hard to stay in.

Another thing that I forgot is that Selena didn't vote because she doesn't have a vote. So she had no clue and she genuinely said she heard Taylor as well. So I feel like I can trust her. She's an old friend too so I doubt she'd really go against me.


Also, I can't believe that Tina is gone! This is just wow. I'm sad. The game is almost even, 8 favorites and 7 fans. Damn, we need to get it together quickly. I have faith that Gloria will be okay. I can see their tribe throwing Immunity to save the other fans and then she will pull out her Idol and bam! They are all good. R.I.P. to Tina & Beau. Definitely a rough day for me in losing two great allies.

[stephenie]

Episode 7

I will not accept defeat. I feel like I have just done nothing as far as challenges thus far. Literally, I haven't participated in them because so many people take the reigns and don't do much. If I have the opportunity to play in this one today. I'm gonna give it my all. I just want to win just to be super safe.


I'm concocting an ungodly plan at the moment. Earlier in the game, Gloria showed me what the idol looks like. I was thinking of taking that picture and changing it's color and contorting it and then possibly giving it to someone on this tribe to sort of gain their trust 100% and the one person I think I need to do that with is Liam. Liam is probably the one really running the show. Liam, Ben and Carly are all from Season 3 and they have been super tight since the beginning. Selena, Taylor and I are basically sitting ducks and after my vote for Taylor, I doubt he'd ever work with me. Better for me right now to just go with Season 3 and get rid of Taylor and Selena if need be. But looking at our challenge record, I can honestly see us winning 2 or all 3 Immunities that are left.

[stephenie]

1. Who do you trust the most and the least on your new tribes?
2. How has the swap affected your gameplay?
3. Is there anyone you don't want to win immunity? What would happen if they did?

Hmm this is tough because I don't trust anyone 100% but there isn't a high level of distrust either even though I was technically blindsided as well. Everyone is so calm around me. I also think with me showing myself in this challenge today and Taylor still being absent, it moves me up in a lot of people's minds. Sorry for wandering off, just had to point that out but from top to bottom I'd say it's:

1. Carly - The Most
2. Selena
3. Ben
4. Liam
5. Taylor - The Least

Carly and I just have a connection. She was Freddie from my season and that does help me here. I loved Freddie and I really like Carly. Ben is kind of okay cool nice dude. He's my black Ken and I'm black Barbie. But we need to talk more for real. Selena is cool, we just get each other and we know each other from way back. We've had a lot of real talks in this game. I think a good thing that happened was when Tina/Selena separated because it gave Selena more opportunity in the game overall.

Let me first start with Taylor and say, I trust him the least because I know him the least. He's the Purple Kelly or the FvF Brenda of the game. Ok Liam is just, like I can't even begin to describe it. Let's put it this way, I'm the Corinne to his Philip. Like whoa, how did I get stuck in an alliance with him? He thinks he is a hot shot. He thinks he is the leader and he probably is and FLAUNTS it. He's good a challenges, I get that but he really kind of commands the team. For now, it's all yes sir, yes master but the first opportunity that I have to switch up this game. It's going to be on him. He will have no clue, I would make it an absolutely last second game changer switch just like my own boot. He just makes me ill.


The swap has affected my gameplay so much. I have to rethink things and start chatting with more people. If it were the favorites, I could have just stuck talking to my clique of Tina, Chad, Gloria and had Beau on the side which was the 5 key votes I needed. Now, I have to re-evaluate everyone and just shift with everything. It's really not easy for me. Right now, I'm laying low and just playing a "yes sir!" type of game.

I don't want the fans to win Immunity because I want them to suffer more. I know that sounds harsh but the only way for me to get an upper hand is for their to be like 4 fans in the merge. It's a lot harder for someone like me to flip with 5 fans or 6 fans just so I could go out 6th or 7th. If they win Immunity, oh well. It's w.e. as long as I win Immunity too.

[stephenie]

I'm nervous. I'm not exactly sure what's going on. Like, I don't think anything is 100% yet. I have only spoken to Selena and she seems down to vote Taylor. I don't see why he shouldn't go. He's super UTR and like his total posts is like 30 for god sakes.