Episode 3 ~ The Truth Will Set You Free

[ben]

Well, it looks like we'll be going to TC this round (Double TC) so Laela (or whoever I betray) is finally going to see where my true loyalties lay (not to them...). Eeks

[ben]

Tina - Zoe - Ben
Chad - Gloria - Taylor
Stephenie - Liam - Beau
Carly - Selena - Laela

[ben]

I wanted to win the IC really badly, but as the rounds transgressed it became more and more apparent that Gloria was like two steps ahead of me so I wound up giving her one of the pieces she needed so she could go to sleep (I still haven't slept, oops). I really hope no one notices, but she would have won anyway, I just sped up the process and gained favor.

Gloria and Steph discussed splitting the votes: men (+ Gloria) vote for Laela, while the women vote for Zoe, in case Laela uses an idol. They're the duo that needs to be broken up at the moment.

Furthermore, season 4 + season 3 have confirmed our alliance, minus Tina. Everyone was informed and I just reeled in Liam to seal the deal. I told him it looks like Laela is the vote and he was hesitant at first, because I know he likes her but I think he's on board now. He doesn't want to ruin the tribal unity, it seems. He would prefer a unified tribe WITH Laela, but ultimately this is the right track.

I also spoke to Selena who only heard Beau, but then we spoke about Laela and I found out she wouldn't be against that. I really like Selena, she and I REALLY get along on a personal level, way more than the majority of people here (okay, maybe EVERYONE except Gloria and Taylor) and I feel bad because she's not in my main circle, but I do have a special place in my heart for her. Also, there's Carly who I absolutely ADORE this season. <3 <3 <3 Lahv lahv lahv.

Finally, awkwardly enough, Laela messaged me saying "Beau?" and I'm just like, "Yep." lol oh boy this is gonna be one for the books.

[ben]

I feel bad because I do think Laela is genuine to me and that she thinks I'm one of her closest allies, however at the time time... she's telling everyone that and I can never be sure. I feel much more comfortable with Gloria and Taylor, as well as Carly and Liam. They are the people I consider my core and will do anything for. Everyone else, not so much.

I am a bit worried that once Laela goes, people will begin looking for a scapegoat target who is "aligned with everyone" and I'm worried it could be me, BUT there is one huge difference between Laela's game and my game. Laela actively sought out alliances and deals with almost everyone... I have people coming to me, and it's game suicide to say "no" to an alliance. I feel it's not my fault I have them. I'm even trying to back away and be around less so i have less opportunity to charm people (I guess? IDK.) I just don't want to be a villain and I feel like I'm going to have to be. We all have to be in a way, if we want to make it big, I guess.

I just hope when Laela goes, she doesn't drag me down with her. :-\ Here goes nothing.

[ben]

I knew I shouldn't have signed on when I woke up lol.

I immediately am messaged by Laela, who shows me a convo between her and Beau, in which she claims Beau is crazy. I read the convo and tbh, she just sounds like a bitch. I show Gloria, and Gloria tells me Laela is showing EVERYONE the convo, and that Selena told Laela about the blindside (oopsy daisy, I'm so logging off soon lol.) Anyway, I show Beau the convo and I tell him she looks like a bitch, he thanks me. I tell him that I told him I'd watch out for him and I intend on pulling through for him and he should be safe, he thanks me again. I find Beau endearing, and cute. I am glad he's staying, but I'm mortally frightened by Laela's reaction to TC. I'm sure Beau will love it, if that's any consolation.

Anyway, here's the convo Laela is showing:



Idk if print screening is allowed and I'm not complaining because it would have the same affect as if she didn't print screen, but she should be leaving tonight anyway so friggen yolo man.

[ben]

Grrrrreatttt developments. Laela is definitely catching on to what's happening and there's a little over an hour until the deadline, so things are probably going to get heated in that timeframe. I really just want to block her and block it all out, but I'm not going to be an Ellen/Ryan and avoid someone who's being voted out. I'm not going to be a pussy. (hehe)

Laela IM'd me and asked directly if I'm voting her out... I was ignoring her for a little, but I remembered I'm here to play with my head, not my heart. I sucked it up and told her no, I'm not voting for her. To which, she never replied and I hope she never does lol.

Anyway further developments include Selena asking me for a concrete alliance and I accepted (duh, who would say no?) and Beau, who asked me for a F2. He hinted at one earlier (like 2 days ago?), but I didn't ask him for one because I don't want to make deals I can't keep up with, however he asked me directly now, so I accepted (duh, who would say no?). This is good but it's gonna become increasingly difficult to be totally honest with everyone, when I'm being honest with NO ONE. It's weird, because in games usually I have one solid person who I tell everything to, and who I'm totally honest with, but in this game it's different. I'm here to play for myself, I'm here to win, and I'm here to redeem myself. Bring. It. On.

[ben]

OH GREAT. Laela IM'd me again saying Beau is intimidating her and it's working. I feel like now is the time I'm supposed to hug her and hold her and tell her it's gonna be okay, but sigh. I know it's not going to be so get off my dick.

[ben]

If I'm blindsided how awkies.

[ben]

Also, I apologize for not being black IRL.

[dominic]

<3 you! :*

[ben]

Love you too. xxxx <3

I just realized I didn't really update (much) but meh. Not much going on really and I'm trying to chillax so I don't overplay (a la Laela).

[aj]

Apr 20, 2013 19:09:17 GMT -5 ben said:

Also, I apologize for not being black IRL.

Trust me, I understand. I had to apologize to a fellow player for not being white IRL.

[Lucunt🍻🔫Ԇ]

<3

[wendy]

Apr 20, 2013 19:09:17 GMT -5 ben said:

Also, I apologize for not being black IRL.

If you are a white gay, then, you are 34% of a Black female.

[Ryan]