Episode VI

[thiago]

Coming to you live from Vancouver, it's Thiaaagggoooo!

Wow, so corny.

Anyway, I'm on the west coast now and I'm having a fantastic time! I had a really enjoyable time with my family out in the middle of nowhere in the mountains and I'm feeling very refreshed.

So when I got back today I heard that Starr wants to turn on Julian because she's "realizing" that he has alliances with everyone. I think it's actually me that has done that but she seems sure that Julian has everyone. I'm not really sure if Starr actually believes this, because Starr seems the type to make something up to push her own agenda and try to appear innocent about it. I think Starr is as subtle and graceful as an elephant on ice skates. She runs around trying to drive strategy but she's really unaware that she is in a very vulnerable position, and it's me holding the trigger. She's lucky I haven't decided to pull the trigger. I also think that since Julian is targetting Mark, and Starr thinks she has Mark--even though Mark tells me everything Starr says to him--she wants to protect Mark and have someone else, like Bree, in her back pocket.

So, onto the big stuff. Tonight was the sacrifice. When it was posted, immediately Starr and Bree said they think it's a new tribe forming, which made sense. They were the ONLY other two people online. I was really shocked. I think some of my tribe did not sign online on purpose. Anyway, Starr was begging me to switch with her. I knew at this point that it wasn't in my best interest to do so; however, if I didn't switch, it would be randomized and my alliance with the boys could potentially be in the minority since Reliquum would become a team of 5, and it would only take Knox/Gabe to swap if Bree/Julian or Starr/Bree stay on Reliquum and I couldn't risk that. Instead, Julian is an easy target on Reliquum. However, I am now an easy target in a tie situation. The bottom line is that at this point we are going to be decimated anyway, given we are so behind in numbers. Sure, I could survive until the merge on Reliquum, but my alliance would be very exposed. This way, it doesn't look like I'm with Mark/Zac/Gabe and I can protect our numbers. It's a risk, certainly, but it is a risk to better my chance at the win. I'm not playing for early jury.

Starr has spilled the beans on our new team. She told me that Chad/Tina definitely have a pregame alliance because she knows who they are and they are friends in multiple games together right now, so they must be watching one another. This sounds about right to me. I do think one of them may have found the apple given how cocky both Tina and Chad were tonight. My biggest fear is that the apple was an extra vote or block vote or anything to benefit them in a tie vote situation.

I spoke with Chad about Ontario and tried to develop a personal relationship there, or at least get the conversation flowing. He kept telling me that things were quiet on his tribe and boring; however, he told Starr that the favourites are all together and wants to take us fans out, which is my biggest fear. At this point Chad is a gamer in a solid position and he's clearly cocky, so regardless of how "connected" I can be with Chad, he will always be loyal to his group and will not flip or trust me. Tina is similar, but a little less openly cocky about it. I think these are both teenage kids who are power tripping a little. It makes me very uneasy.

I don't really know what to do. I think I have an advantage, if I can win challenges on this team and bond with the favourites, of knowing favourites. The current Reliquum will go into a merge still knowing none of the favourites, while I'm busy mingling with these new people and establishing new bonds. However, if these new people decide to boot me, I could be screwed. I haven't decided if I want to screw over Bree/Starr because Chad/Tina could easily sell me out to them and I'm screwed, but who is to say that Starr/Bree won't turn on me? It was comforting to hear tonight from Bree that she didn't think Starr made the right call switching and felt she made a mistake. I hope this means that Bree will have my back. I feel like the favourites think the men have an alliance and this will have me targetted. This is true, but no one really knows it; rather, Starr has been calling the shots.

We'll see what happens, but right now I need to win this immunity coming up or else I'm in real danger. I would hate to be at risk in a rocks situation.

I think my strategy at this point is to appear as if I wasn't really in a bad or good spot on my tribe, that things were quiet and straight forward, and play up that Julian was in a great spot and was sort of our leader. I'm hoping that me talking poorly about a male will deflect the idea of a male alliance.

[thiago]

1. Who do you trust the most and the least on your new tribes?

At this point, I oddly enough have to trust Starr the most. I don't feel Bree would lie to me either, but Starr gives up the most information. I do believe she trusts me.

I trust all the Favourites the least. I don't know them and they all appear a little skeezy. Chad seems cocky and condesending, probably due to his young age and God complex being in control on his old tribe; Tina fishes for information all the time and I give her bad info, and she also says that she likes me but it all seems very vapid; Gloria I have yet to meet.

2. How has the swap affected your gameplay?

My gameplay is now at risk. I am vulnerable. I am not solidly in a majority. I am struggling to find footing in the game. However, this would have happened in a merge situation also. I'm just glad not to be outnumbered.

3. Is there anyone you don't want to win immunity? What would happen if they did?

I don't want Starr to win immunity because she would be the most likely target after me at Judgment. I think Bree could go because she's annoying but it would be a dumb move. I worry the favourites will throw challenges if they get a majority in numbers to boost the favourite's numbers going into a merge.

[thiago]

This is so hilarious:

[thiago]

I had typed up a large post and then I accidentally deleted the window so I am writing this confessional with tears streaming down my face. Just kidding. Well, not really.

So this is what has happened since the sacrifice:

Starr apparently doesn't get along with Chad & Tina outside of the game and had a bit of an argument. However, Chad and Starr then made up according to Starr and Chad offered her a secret alliance.

Starr went to Eden and got the vote nullifier, which is great because it's a 3-3 situation. However, Starr was hesitant to use it which really worries me and confuses me, and makes me suspicious. Starr is really all over the place, she's an emotional, paranoid wreck.

Tina keeps telling me I am a huge social threat and she likes me and this freaked me out, so I started to go all out in the challenge to win. It was so heartbreaking to lose. I tried to find out what numbers others were doing and said I wouldn't go for those numbers. I hope that made people feel I liked them and wasn't sneaky.

After Chad won immunity, Tina told me that I'm getting voted for and in confidence told me that Gloria and Chad think I have an idol and Gloria really wants me out. She really hates Starr and wants her gone. She also suggested voting for Gloria. I think, however, that Tina also has a deep personal hatred for Starr and will say anything to get the vote onto Starr. I was feeling really down because I felt at this point I was definitely going home and without an idol. Mark had offered his idol but inter-tribe idol passing is forbidden. I felt really down yesterday because I felt the game was over for me, and for something I don't even have: an idol.

Starr also confirmed that they were suspicious I had an idol which freaked me out even more. However, Starr says she has been talking to Gloria and she got her to flip, and also Chad. I didn't believe this really but it sounded good. They all want to vote Tina, which I don't love because Tina has been very honest with me. However, if this keeps me/Starr/Bree in a majority then I'll take it.

Apparently Bree told Chad that Starr has a null vote. I couldn't believe she did that, it seems like a lie to me, but you never know. Starr told me this. Starr is really all over the place and I can't believe this vote is riding on her. However, she seems to trust me very much and I'm glad I've kept this relationship going even though I betrayed her completely on Reliquum.

Gloria and I chatted late we connected on a personal level. I needed her to know about the idol thing so I told her I don't have it and also told her what Tina said. She completely opened up to me about Bree telling Chad about the idol and that Starr didn't want me to know that her and Chad knew. She basically told me everything Starr told me, which confirms to me what Starr had been telling me all along, but of course I acted surprised about it all. Gloria wants us to work together and throw Fans VS. Faves out the window. I like Gloria but she is smart and she seems to be trying to tell me to vote Starr or Tina, but if I vote Starr then favorites could regain majority and Chad/Tina/Gloria could all vote me off in a 3-2-1 vote and I can't allow that risk. I'm wondering if Tina has an idol and they are going to play it, which makes me very worried that I could go home. I know someone has that first idol and they are playing it off like Laela went home with it, so you never know. It could be me going. I'm so paranoid I feel like all this is a great act to blindside me. I can't feel safe.

I told Gloria I am voting Tina and I hope she does too. I'm still worried the vote is somehow against me or that I will be blindsided. I think our tribe is really strong sans Bree and hopefully we can go far together and I can be protected with immunity for a long while.

This is a crazy vote. Anything could happen. I've contemplating selling Bree/Starr out but you never know and the more fans in the game the better, I think. We have to anticipate that the faves are a united group. I really hope Gloria is as honest with me as she says, but I have to assume she is loyal to Chad in some capacity. I think Chad is a very sneaky person and I trust him the least, for sure. He's really cocky about his position and I hope he doesn't last long or rejoin his old tribe. However, according to Gloria the faves all knew about him/Tina's bond so hopefully they will not care too much about him. Gloria also told me she felt Laela had the idol and they split the votes between Laela and Zoe when voting her off, then voted off Zoe, which matches what we know, so I'm not worried about them having an idol since I know Mark has the second one.

I feel like I'm playing a game with a bunch of crazy teenagers, which is probably true. So many hormones.

As of now I think the vote will be 5 Tina and 1 or 0 Starr depending on whether Starr nulls Tina or not. I can't help but still feel depressed about the vote. This game has totally shot my nerves. I wish I didn't care so much!!

[thiago]

Now Chad tells me he's voting for Starr with Tina and BREE. Man this game is a nightmare. Gloria says she's voting with me and Starr against Tina, so as long as the null is used we should be fine in taking out Tina... my only worry now is what if Bree sold the alliance out and they all think I'm with Julian and Starr and Bree is now in a better position? Maybe it's a paranoid stetch but you have to consider all scenarios. Man this is crazy. I have to talk to Bree!! And Starr HAS to use that null vote or I'll smack her.

Maybe everyone is against me/Starr after Bree sold us out and they're just appeasing me so that I don't give an idol to Starr. I know it sounds far-fetch'd but I could see it... Starr is telling me she only told Chad about the vote, but Gloria told me Starr told her too but didn't want me to know about that. I don't know who to trust here.

MY HEAD IS SPINNING OUT OF CONTROL! Who is truthful?

[chase]

Thiago, your confessionals are excellent to read. Keep em up!

Also, I like how you spelt far-fetched <3

[thiago]

I am mentally exhausted. My god. I can't believe how this all turned out.

Impending CRASH in 3...2..1....