Post by bree on Apr 30, 2013 13:45:13 GMT -5
Going to be normal since God basically confirmed that y'all know me. Wish I could have a good confessional picture. I suppose I can always go with... this:
I figure it's appropriate to title this confessional about what started all the shit that went down on our tribe, something which I have been in the middle of since it started.
Here's my version of events for those of you who care:
1. Skylarr, aka Starr, bailed on his co-hosting duties in Fibo Survivor 1. This left Sam, aka Chad, to host all by his lonesome, with me helping out wherever I could. I did not sign up as a PW to do that.
2. Since Skylarr bailed, Cam (Annie) and Sam were pretty fed up with him, and Cam started pressing to delete Skylar's account so he couldn't do anything. Sam trusted Skylar, but this trust was sorely misplaced.
3. Skylar basically absolved all responsibility. Marina, aka Tina, and myself were on his case during this time. Here's what Skylar said:
This is ridiculous. I see no point in helping host a game when the cast fucking sucks balls. I put every ounce of myself into the graphics, and have got multiple complaints about how Sam's an annoying host. Sorry, but it's not my fault that the game failed. I'm extremely insulted. If anything, I was the reason that this game even existed. Are you kidding? Get your head out of your asses. You can host a second season but I'll gladly stay as far away from it as possible. Have fun. I deleted everything that had any of my graphics on it.
What we were doing was berating him for abandoning the game and having an attitude problem. He completely ignored my points, in that he could have helped the game succeed as opposed to sitting back and being useless. He made the graphics, then bailed. He never helped Sam grow as a host. He never did anything and was basically blaming Sam when it was a stupid pre-game that just went inactive randomly for no reason. Skylar had done this two or three times before that and denied responsibility there, and this is something we call a "pattern."
4. Marina, Sam, and myself started the #killskylar campaign that night, to basically run him out of ORGs by ruining his reputation for his reckless behavior. It's only appropriate that we're going to finish what we started, and we're going to do it here. We can't have any of this drama on the tribe, and since Skylar got a group of three to turn a lot of people against him, and all three are on this tribe, we have to do it.
The real reason why I don't trust Skylar? Because I know he's apt to abandon me and be a worthless ally somewhere down the line, mostly likely if/when he finds out who I am and that I took the opposite side that night in Fibo 1. That, and this sort of goes beyond the game. I want him to understand how Sam felt that night, and the best way to do that is to betray him in the same vein. If that makes me cold-blooded, so what? I feel as if he deserves a lesson in humility. I don't care what this does for my game at this point. I took a side way in the beginning of this whole ordeal, and it's amazingly ironic that all four of us ended up on the same tribe together, dragging Thiago and Gloria into the mess. I hate that they have to get involved, but c'est le vie. (Yes, I can speak a LITTLE French [un, deux, trois, quatre, cinq, six, sept, huit, neuf, dix - I had to look up the spelling... lol] but I need to plan my shticks better in the future xD)
Skylar says he was constantly bullied by Cam and Marina (he did not mention me), but that does not excuse what he did. It's basically the same thing as a bullied youth bringing a gun to school, only much less horrifying. I don't want to be on the wrong end of the gun if Skylar finds out who I am. That is what makes me afraid of going to the merge with him. While Sam and Marina actually want to work with me for who I am, as opposed to the generically-named Fleur DuPont. Luis/Gloria... probably doesn't, since he's hated my shticks in the past. Voted me out quickly both times. Sam is probably going to have to make a decision if we go to Judgment again. But let's hope we don't. I honestly think we can avoid it, given how many of us on this tribe are challenge whores.
In the end, should Starr not win immunity, I will betray her. I don't like the thought of that, hence why I am using the name "Skylar." It's Skylar that I don't mind betraying after what he did in Fibo. I actually like him quite a bit now that I've gotten to know him and hear his side of the story. I hope he can forgive me for what I'm doing... and unblock me, since I called him a piece of shit after what he did in Fibo. Skylar, if you're reading this... I am sorry. I am going with my heart here, and my heart says to give you a return courtesy. I never intended to make you feel bullied or anything, I merely wanted you to see how ridiculous you were being. You should have just ignored the issue and done your job, otherwise I wouldn't have yelled at you for bailing and making me do that work instead. I am really sorry for betraying you, but my heart says that's what is best. Can you forgive me...?
I figure it's appropriate to title this confessional about what started all the shit that went down on our tribe, something which I have been in the middle of since it started.
Here's my version of events for those of you who care:
1. Skylarr, aka Starr, bailed on his co-hosting duties in Fibo Survivor 1. This left Sam, aka Chad, to host all by his lonesome, with me helping out wherever I could. I did not sign up as a PW to do that.
2. Since Skylarr bailed, Cam (Annie) and Sam were pretty fed up with him, and Cam started pressing to delete Skylar's account so he couldn't do anything. Sam trusted Skylar, but this trust was sorely misplaced.
3. Skylar basically absolved all responsibility. Marina, aka Tina, and myself were on his case during this time. Here's what Skylar said:
This is ridiculous. I see no point in helping host a game when the cast fucking sucks balls. I put every ounce of myself into the graphics, and have got multiple complaints about how Sam's an annoying host. Sorry, but it's not my fault that the game failed. I'm extremely insulted. If anything, I was the reason that this game even existed. Are you kidding? Get your head out of your asses. You can host a second season but I'll gladly stay as far away from it as possible. Have fun. I deleted everything that had any of my graphics on it.
What we were doing was berating him for abandoning the game and having an attitude problem. He completely ignored my points, in that he could have helped the game succeed as opposed to sitting back and being useless. He made the graphics, then bailed. He never helped Sam grow as a host. He never did anything and was basically blaming Sam when it was a stupid pre-game that just went inactive randomly for no reason. Skylar had done this two or three times before that and denied responsibility there, and this is something we call a "pattern."
4. Marina, Sam, and myself started the #killskylar campaign that night, to basically run him out of ORGs by ruining his reputation for his reckless behavior. It's only appropriate that we're going to finish what we started, and we're going to do it here. We can't have any of this drama on the tribe, and since Skylar got a group of three to turn a lot of people against him, and all three are on this tribe, we have to do it.
The real reason why I don't trust Skylar? Because I know he's apt to abandon me and be a worthless ally somewhere down the line, mostly likely if/when he finds out who I am and that I took the opposite side that night in Fibo 1. That, and this sort of goes beyond the game. I want him to understand how Sam felt that night, and the best way to do that is to betray him in the same vein. If that makes me cold-blooded, so what? I feel as if he deserves a lesson in humility. I don't care what this does for my game at this point. I took a side way in the beginning of this whole ordeal, and it's amazingly ironic that all four of us ended up on the same tribe together, dragging Thiago and Gloria into the mess. I hate that they have to get involved, but c'est le vie. (Yes, I can speak a LITTLE French [un, deux, trois, quatre, cinq, six, sept, huit, neuf, dix - I had to look up the spelling... lol] but I need to plan my shticks better in the future xD)
Skylar says he was constantly bullied by Cam and Marina (he did not mention me), but that does not excuse what he did. It's basically the same thing as a bullied youth bringing a gun to school, only much less horrifying. I don't want to be on the wrong end of the gun if Skylar finds out who I am. That is what makes me afraid of going to the merge with him. While Sam and Marina actually want to work with me for who I am, as opposed to the generically-named Fleur DuPont. Luis/Gloria... probably doesn't, since he's hated my shticks in the past. Voted me out quickly both times. Sam is probably going to have to make a decision if we go to Judgment again. But let's hope we don't. I honestly think we can avoid it, given how many of us on this tribe are challenge whores.
In the end, should Starr not win immunity, I will betray her. I don't like the thought of that, hence why I am using the name "Skylar." It's Skylar that I don't mind betraying after what he did in Fibo. I actually like him quite a bit now that I've gotten to know him and hear his side of the story. I hope he can forgive me for what I'm doing... and unblock me, since I called him a piece of shit after what he did in Fibo. Skylar, if you're reading this... I am sorry. I am going with my heart here, and my heart says to give you a return courtesy. I never intended to make you feel bullied or anything, I merely wanted you to see how ridiculous you were being. You should have just ignored the issue and done your job, otherwise I wouldn't have yelled at you for bailing and making me do that work instead. I am really sorry for betraying you, but my heart says that's what is best. Can you forgive me...?
