Round Seven

[chad]

Let's start off this round with a nice dedication to my lovely friend Robert, aka Laela, who is no longer with us in this game, yet continuously harasses me over AIM.

This is a dedication to all the idiots out there who can't take a loss:

(10:14:30 PM) robertcheeseball cant wait to see you too <3
(10:14:40 PM) petahthemagnificent rude
(10:15:48 PM) robertcheeseball making you a fucking cake when you come

(10:17:00 PM) robertcheeseball i pray to jesus
(10:17:00 PM) robertcheeseball every night
(10:17:08 PM) petahthemagnificent omfg
(10:17:11 PM) petahthemagnificent robert plz
(10:18:16 PM) robertcheeseball you dont want me to pr4y?

(10:19:32 PM) robertcheeseball i cant wait to see you fail it for a fourth time
(10:19:33 PM) robertcheeseball ttyl
(10:19:33 PM) robertcheeseball <3

[chad]

So more or less things are not where they should be, and I'm going to have to do a few things this round to ensure that I get back on track to get my way into merge.

That looming 13th placement is still there, and god if I get it I think I very well will shoot myself in the face, because strategically I think I've been pretty sounds this game. But I haven't been as wise.

Taking other people's minds into account is something that I definitely have to do in the future, and having an insane trust level clearly isn't going to fix anything. So I'm going to have to try and play dirty, and that isn't ever how I've played so let's see how this goes shall we.

So I fucked up again.

Really this is a shame on me situation.

Because defend Tina once and get fucked over for it, shame on you (here's lookin at u sami and ryan), but defend Tina twice and get fucked over for it, shame on me.

I really hold myself back for her cause she is a trustworthy little fucker, but like seriously her meltdowns do her in so hardcore every single time and it just isn't worth it anymore. At least not in this series, I'll gladly work with her again wherever :x but not here.

Anyways, tonight has solely been damage control.

Tina kind of threw me under the bus as she left threatening and yelling at everyone, basically only sealing my fate a little bit more should we have to go to judgement, which is just a big fuck you to me, anyways there's nothing I can do about her there except watch her sink even more. It's a little pathetic, but what can you do.

I talked to Starr a lot. She was asking me if I was the #killskylar vote, and I asked her if she actually thought I had that artistic talent, and we actually talked it out. She's not buying any of it, I can tell, but I need to do damage control and the best way I know how is to completely suck up.

I told her that I only voted her because I was under the impression that EVERYONE was voting for her, which was entirely, basically true. I kind of fucked myself over on that one once Thiago started asking if I was really expecting him to vote alongside me against Starr. But I sorted that out with him quickly, and said I didn't expect him to do anything and he's kind of fine now.

Anyways, Starr, I don't know, like I mean, currently I have to work with her, and I know she'll pose a big enough threat that come merge she will be the first target. But for now - while we're still in tribes, with either a merge, or a tribe dissolve on the horizon, I need to watch out for what potentially could be a fatal mistake on my part.

Gloria really seemed to be ignoring me tonight which is a little bit of a worry, but ultimately I shouldn't be surprised. She did completely flip on me without telling me. Using the excuse that I "would have told Tina" which is fucking BULLSHIT. Sorry, but I mean this morning I told Gloria that it was completely up to her what we did, I gave her the power to choose, and she said she was teetering on the fence, but Starr.

Fine, cool, let's vote Starr.

But nop, Tina. Like jesus christ, talk about fucking me over and spitting on my grave.

But, whatever, I can't look at that now, I have to keep looking forward. And forward does not include Gloria as my number one and keeping her with me. She says she wants to keep working with me, but I don't really believe her at the moment. Though she does have the idol, so she is worth holding on to.

The only thing I can really do at this point is throw Bree under the bus.

UGH I DON'T WANT TO BUT I DON'T SEE ANY OTHER WAY.

She cast the kill skylar vote, and Starr is totally completely fucking freaking out about that and I need to strike while the iron's hot and make sure that I don't get out because of it.

So I suggested to Starr that we have a four person alliance, Gloria, Starr, Thiago, and I. And basically that's the best I can do for now, and that's all that happened today?

Also AJ, Cameron told me you have 2 grams so bitch you better share