Round 14 Confessionals

[mark]

Based on the episode guide, I'm guessing that Knox and Gloria's was all one she-bang.

I have so much to say, and I don't know if I can even say it all in the next 10 minutes...which is when I leave for my 40 minute communte home from work.

I've never been so stressed out, emotional, wrung throught the wringers, and tested in one single day of gaming than I was yesterday. And let's remember, this wasn't a game I was necessarily "in to" when it started. Nor was it one I had been longing to do for ages. Chase invited, I mulled it over...sure, why not?

But yesterday. Oh lawdy. All the strategy going into trying to figure out who had the idol, if they had, and how they were going to play it unnerved me. Things just didn't check out. We spent the whole day trying to make Gloria feel safe so she (or whoever) wouldn't use it. I guess my plan was a little more haphazard than Thiago's, because Gloria obviously didn't have an ounce of trust for me. That's fine...I was threatened by her the day they sacrficed and Thiago kept me up to date on all the Farrago goings on. I've wanted her gone ever since.

I don't do cryptic, and I don't trust quiet. Just get out of my game please.

So at the last minute, after I had signed off with a massive (legit) headache, Thiago asks me if it might be a good idea if he tried to get them to vote me. At that point, I didn't care....let them vote me out of this mania! Though, I didn't really think it would turn out like it did. In a snap the vote had changed to me. And Ben....and this is so weird...sends me a PM telling me to use the idol if I have one.

Well...sorry Gloria, we pulled a fast one on you. Thiago and and I probably deserve the academy award for yesterday's performce because we hammed it up. I even faked a freak out in front of Ben.

Though, don't think for a second I didn't almost have a heart attack waiting for those results, knowing there were at least 3 names for me, and if Gloria had played her sword....I'd be a goner.

Ok, times up...I'll continue this in a few.

[mark]

Where was I?

Oh yes, my pending doom. I don't think Thiago realized Gloria would jump on that idea like it was covered in chocolate. But she did. What a ho. We barely scraped by, but we did, with our sword in tact. Then, of course, we barely even had time to breathe before it was challenge time again with a live judgment to follow. Now...I consider myself a decent Survivor player. As a rule, I consider myself an above average challenge contender. But put a live challenge in front of me and I go limp. I can on the ball sometimes, but I'm just not good off the cuff, especially after a day like yesterday. The challenge was simple enough, and I even won my first heat, but when I had to pick the next duelists, I have no idea why I typed "Liam and Bree." Thiago had told me right before the challenge that we had this because Bree had a notebook, or some such. I had no idea what that meant, but I guessed it to mean Bree was sure she was winning. So....my first instinct was to think, "Bree will take out Liam." It didn't even occur to me to put Ben and Liam together, or that Ben's name was even on the list for that matter. After the day, I was so frazzled, it was about par for the course. Of course Bree has to pop off and tell me I just cost us the challenge. In one ear, out the other. I was done with the game at that point. So I didn't really care what Bree thought. She's not in control like she thinks, but we can let her go right on and think that.

Sock of shock, Ben wins...and everyone goes freaking out that Liam has an idol, when Knox tells us plainly that Gloria said she had it. Then my eyes were opened. Knox and Gloria really were in cahoots this whole time. It would have been soooo smooth had Knox have known how to execute it. But no, in what we learned was typical Knox fashion, he played the pious card, showed too much of his hand, and overreacted just a tad. And because everyone was freaking out about the idol ( I don't believe Liam had ) Knox got the boot. No biggie.

I'm rambling. Nothing much more to say. I use my idol next and one of Ben or Liam goes, depending on who isn't immune. Ben over Liam. And if both of them are, then we take out Bree.

Either way, I'm untouchable for a round. Feels great.

[mark]

The challenge couldn't have gone more smoothly had I planned it myself. I still tried, but I didn't need it. I needed Thiago to win, and he pulled through. Now Ben is wide open.

The only catch is that pesky sword. I'm preeetttty sure it went out with Gloria, but there is just a nagging suspicion. I feel like it would have been played on Liam the night before. At any rate, we have plans in place. Because of my little brain fart at the challenge, Bree was able to convince Liam and Ben to vote me again. Of course, I've been the target for them 358418451651645 times, so there wasn't much convincing to be done. But I hope I don't dash their dreams to badly when I whip out my sword. These poor guys have been batted around the entire merge like play toys at the mercy of cat paws.

Meow.

We have a plan in place should they really have an idol. This vote should be 2-2-2 for Mark, Liam, and Ben. My votes get cancelled and we revote and take out Ben. If one happens to have the idol, or they don't, in fact, vote for me, then we tie...and we take out the open one in a revote.

The only thing that can't happen tomorrow is that Zac goes. Any other way, I'm still in the final 5 with a majority.

So I can sleep tonight.