Confessionals

[Gloria]

Gloria will confess throughout the game here.

[Gloria]

Well here we go? And here I am? Getting mentally prepared for hell. Being that it's fans vs. favorites, it'll be even tougher for me because there's no alias for me to hide behind in. People will probably try to get dirt on me to know how I play, etc. I'm not ecstatic on that part but that certainly won't stop me from whooping some ass. After last season I was definitely a big character, over the top, bitchy, sometimes strategic, sometimes irrational but this time I'm hoping to play a bit different. And like I said hoping. I hope I can stay more level headed and less trash talking of my fellow tribemates. I'll keep that to myself in here I guess.I don't really know a lot from my fellow favorites to be honest and that worries me. Because a lot of them seem to know the dirt on me but I don't have any on them because I have no damn clue who they are? Like Laela knew stuff from bbprime? That game was YEARS ago. Really? But at the same time I have people that I've formed good bonds with over the years like Ben. And people I've had rocky friendships with but ultimately on good terms like Taylor.

So for me everyone else is on a clean slate. I know for fact Laela ran her mouth about me last season. Why? No idea. I don't know her and I don't understand where she gets this hating me from. But I also know that she has been running her mouth because Chad told me so. Last night we had a long conversation were she straight up told me she was targeting me...

REALLY?

Yes, she said that. And then proceeded to say that she didn't think it was the right thing now. And also gave me a rundown on every tribe member. Good thing I have chat logs saved. I feel like this could ammunition in case I need it later but I also need to realize that there could be other threats over Laela out there right now. So I can't blindly target her without getting a good feel on the cast first. She did however express how Chad was trying to twist my words and she said things that I actually told Chad? I'm not sure now how much I can believe in Chad but the game is just starting and I'll try to not let those things blind me.

Anyways, as always thanks for having me and let's rock and roll. This handsome devil will bring it.

[Gloria]

First official confessional and boy will it be a lengthy one.

We started the game, finally. After a long week of wait for this and Laela trying to plot my demise but then telling me about it, we have finally started the game.

I'm trying to not have a set strategy coming into the game. I would rather stay more neutral and not like go crazy with making deals and alliances but I think I'm at a steady pace. Chad has mentioned wanting to work with me and so did Tina. Naturally they are together so we formed something. Do I trust this to last? Probably not. Tina is very calculative and definitely had me cornered today asking me about the idol. She's probably deadset on the fact that I have it. But I'll play along for now. I have to. Because once we lose or we have to vote out people these are potentially the people that will be in my corner against Laela. Not that I want to make this game about me vs. her. I'd rather make it about Chad/Tina vs. Laela but Tina is definitely playing that middle man hardcore so it's a bit hard to maneuver. And Laela has her convinced that I have the idol. Sucks for me but I'm not super worried right now.

I also have an alliance with my good pals Ben and Taylor. I know them from old games and God do we have history. Good and bad but these people know how I am and know me well. I think that moving forward I can definitely trust them. They both know everything the idol. I hope that will make them trust me even more and solidify our bond for sure. I know I can rely a lot on Ben. Taylor worries me a bit but I hope that my idol is enough proof for him that I am definitely looking out for him and that he's definitely in my best interest. Either way that's one of the least of my worries.

Laela...hahahaha; like I don't even know where to begin. This chick goes all of pre-game trying to get votes for me to go and then she tells me. But then she goes and accuses people of random things like Beau and Stephenie being super tight because Stephenie said they live 15 minutes from each other. Could it be true? Yes. But Laela is so psychotic about things it's kind of hilarious. She's definitely immature and I feel bad for her but I like her. She does make me laugh with how crazy she can be. But at the same time it's hard to keep up with her. Everytime you get a message from her you don't know what you're getting. She also tells people she's worried about Tina/Chad. But the one HUGE mistake she's making is that she's telling Ben everything. She has no idea Ben is with me. I don't think so? Like last night I was idol hunting and she knew it so she dragged Zoe and Ben to look for it with her. She then blatantly denies that Zoe helped her when I asked her if she had her help. It's funny. Then she accuses me and Liam of being tight because I told her that he could help her with math. I've only had 1 conversation with Liam. Where does she get this from?! It's crazy!

Anyways, then there's Beau. We had this conversation about wanting to work together and stuff. Do I think it can work? Yes. Do I think it will work? Not sure. I think that he's so hard to control that I'd rather not have to deal with him. But if I need him at the start then I'll recruit his vote for now. I also note that people might see this as an easy bandwagon vote.

And then the rest are people I haven't made a lot of connection with yet. Liam is pretty cool. I like smart people like him and I definitely am interested in getting to know him more. Zoe? She's Laela's background bitch for now. And everybody knows this. Stephenie? She's sweet. She can be one shady lady but she's cool in my book so far. I think I might end up working with her somewhere down the road.

Last night we had a challenge and I was originally a bit annoyed because I want to make sure that I show up for challenges. I want to be an asset to the team always and I hate sitting out of challenges. Lucky me, Carly had computer problems and I subbed in for her. Also note how this is my first time mentioning her? She's technically invisible so far other than Chad or Tina thinking Ben and her are super tight. I don't know why.

So after people started to log out I decided to do some idol hunting and now I have it in my pocket. Do people think I have it? Probably. But will I admit it? No. I think that there's more important maters right now than that. The less I bring up idol talk the better. We'll see how I handle having this idol though. At least I have an edge of knowing how to find it.

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[Gloria]

Yay, another confessional entry. I need to rack up on that edgic baby.

I have a lot of things to update. Last thing I had talked about was the idol. Laela has pretty much told everyone that she thinks I have it. But what she doesn't realize is that this kind of helps me because if I show my allies that I have it then they will trust me. Knowing that I'm being truthful about it. What makes me dangerous as well is that I know how to find these idols now. I know exactly what to do and I will be coming for those idols. I'd rather be a greedy bitch and have them under my possession than have anyone go on crazy power trips and mess things around. I know I said I wouldn't be like in control but with Laela trying to take control I have to pretty much step up or no one will.

Right now we're competing in the second challenge in which Liam came up with a solid strategy for it so I'm happy with that. But to be honest. I'm hoping we lose. I've been placing some plans in motion for Laela to go and I kind of want it to see go down like right now.

First off, Ben and Taylor are super tight. Ben is like telling me EVERYTHING. Ben is pretty good with Carly so I feel like that's an angle I can work there and I will.

Second, I feel like Liam is definitely a solid guy. I looked up some history on him. He's very smart. Challenge wise he can be pretty beneficial and I feel like showing him some trust will earn me his trust. I showed him my idol. Now I know if people confirm this, I will know it was him. Nobody knows. So this is my way of testing him. If Taylor or Ben report something to me. I will know what's going on. But honestly, I don't think he will play me like that.

Third, Stephenie...I had confirmed she was tight with Laela but we had a VERY interesting chat which makes me hopeful of what's coming up next. She's very wary about Laela and the way she behaves. She even told me herself that Laela is just lying out of her butt and that she kind of doesn't like it. She's seeing herself firsthand the cancer that Laela is to her tribe but what's even more beautiful about this is that she proposed a season 4 alliance which would include Beau & Carly since she was Freddie. This is perfect because I feel like tonight I connected a lot with Carly. And Beau has been wanting to work with me. A season 4 alliance would run the tribe but I can still manage my side alliance with Taylor and Ben. They know I'm loyal to them. And with this I will theoretically gain numbers right now. Taylor, Ben, Liam, Carly, Stephenie & Beau...do the math. If everything works out and this season 4 alliance thing blossoms I will be in charge.

Now I also have a couple of concerns. My main concern is Tina. I do like Chad. But Chad will stick up for Tina and I feel so uneasy about her. She's definitely creepy and she's very smart. You have to watch the details that you give her because she remembers them. Plus I know she's convinced I have the idol and that I don't want to tell her. And you know what? She's right. I won't tell her. I'd rather have that doubt in her mind. I told her Zoe probably has it. And it's what I told people. Zoe did help Laela look for it. And people know they are tight. Now I want to work with Chad but I don't think this will be possible as long as Tina is around. So once Laela is gone, Tina has to be a target of some sorts. The only thing that could potentially screw me over is a swap and I feel like Tina in the same tribe with me in a swap would be deadly. Other than that I feel pretty confident about my spot in the game. I can't super overplay things but if I let Stephenie feel like she's in charge of Season 4 alliance then I'm gold.

Which then leaves Selena and Zoe where? Zoe doesn't seem that invested in my opinion. From what I hear she's not very engaging with people. So I'm not necessarily worried about her. And Selena, I like Selena. But she's one of those players that sneaks up on you and goes far. I can see it from right now. I need to get a better grip on her but I think she's a very simple straightforward player. I'm not necessarily feeling threatened. But I don't want to underestimate her.

So overall I made some key progress. Now I have to solidify this season 4 alliance and everything will be perfect. I can't wait!

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[Gloria]

I have to entertain myself somehow! I'm tired of sleeping through alarms just to post in this challenge. Yes, that's how dedicated I am to this game right now. Your welcome, Morgan.

I have some updates here and there about progresses made with the alliances. Stephenie has Beau and Carly solid. And we're still on those planning stages of involving 2 more people. Which preferably would be Liam and Ben from what we planned. I don't want them to know Taylor is connected to me. If I can keep that a secret then perfect for me. But now with this round being a double boot I definitely have the votes to get Laela out. Which is why I'm working extra hard on winning this immunity so I can avoid her having it.

Stephenie is kind of taking charge of this. She's definitely shown me that she's going to be loyal and that she wants our alliance to work long term so I showed her my idol since she was toying with the idea of a split vote and I don't even wanna mess with that. She seems to have locked Chad and Tina. Although I had gone about this with them before. I need to somehow solidify something with them. Especially Tina to make her feel comfortable around me even though I don't feel comfortable around. For now I have to pretend so. So like keeping my mouth shut might be more beneficial to me for now.

I have a lot going on. It's a lot of power to juggle around so let me break it down and entertain myself giving some details I guess.


This is my main alliance. I trust them the most. They know about my idol. And they know about the season 4 alliance. I share with them almost everything. I like to keep open communication with them. I'd do anything for these boys right now. No doubts in my mind.


This is my second alliance. And I like it so far. It's the "season 4" alliance. Stephenie decided to include Carly since she was Freddie last season and they had interaction. I've connected with Stephenie and Carly big time. But I can definitely see this alliance running the game if everyone is confident and trusts each other. Although I haven't had the chance to talk to Beau about, I know he's very eager to work with me so it's bonus points for me.


This is my third alliance. Liam is definitely someone that I feel like I can scoop up as a vote. I don't think people count with him for their plans and I will take advantage of that. In order for him to trust me I went ahead and showed my idol. Either way Laela is running her mouth about it. I have nothing to lose by showing him my idol. I feel like it'll make him trust me.


Eek. This alliance...haha. I adore Chad but Tina concerns me so much. I know she's smart,, she knows I'm smart. I know she's a threat, she knows I'm a threat. Something about her just rubs me the wrong way. She's very analytical of people and very very detail oriented when it comes to her conversations. She'll remember something you said 5 minutes ago that was very minimal. It's so weird but it shows that she's definitely analyzing everything you're saying. I can see Tina turning on me. And that's a problem. I want to get rid of her but I don't want to alienate Chad. For now I'm not going to worry a lot but eventually I will have to. We'll see...

So I finished the challenged. And now I can get some sleep. But it feels nice to be safe. I can go out there and make sure I work on those last few votes to get Laela out of here. Should be an interesting Judgement. I can see her flipping out and melting down. I don't hate her. She's just a lot to keep up with at times and her 100 alliances. It gets to be like a chore. We'll see what happens.

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[Gloria]

I should do this before work...lol